"I met Jersey Jaxin about two months ago through Myspace and she allowed me to come and spend time with her and listen to her story. She spoke about many things from her sexual abuse from her father to the abuse she went through in the porn.
"Much of her life can be summed up in one word: ABUSE.
"She made me cry during our meeting quite a bit but especially when I asked her what she did in her off time when she wasn’t doing porn and she replied, “I hold my roommate and we just cry”.
Here’s a partial transcript of Shelley’s talk with Jersey:
Shelley: “I hear you left porn. What’s going on?”
Jersey: “I’m just tired of the industry. The way that they treat us as though we're just pieces of meat. That we don’t have a mind and our body is everybody’s and we have no soul.”
Shelley: “Did something happen that made you say, ‘That’s it! I’m done.’”
Jersey: “Someone I thought was my friend chose money over me and tried to get my fiance to leave me by offering him double pay. I’ve completely had it. I can’t deal with it anymore… I want everything in my relationship to be only me and him.”
Shelley: “You told me some pretty scary things about the porn industry.”
Jersey: “Guys punching you in the face. You have semen… Twenty or thirty guys all over your face, in your eyes. You get ripped. Your insides can come out of you. It’s never ending. You're viewed as an object not as a human with a spirit. People don’t care. People do drugs because they can’t deal with the way they’re being treated.”
Shelley: “What percentage of porn people use drugs?”
Jersey: “Seventy five percent and rising. Have to numb themselves… There are specific doctors in this industry if you go in for a common cold, they’ll give you vicodin, viagra, anything you want because all they care about is money. You are a number. You’re bruised. You have black eyes. You’re ripped. You’re torn. You have your insides coming out of you. It’s not pretty and foofoo on set. You get hurt.”
“The main thing going around now is crystal meth, cocaine and heroin. …You have to numb yourself to go on set. The more you work, the more you have to numb yourself. The more you become addicted, the more your personal life is nothing but drugs… Your whole life becomes nothing but porn.”
“I was a drinker. I drank a lot. Vodka was my drug. Vodka was my numbing toy. Before sets, after sets, and if it was a set where people didn’t care, they’d have it there waiting.”
Shelley: “Do pornographers provide drugs?”
Jersey: “Some of them do. Some of them do it in front of you. I used to have a problem with cocaine that I overcame. It’s hard when they’re putting it in front of you and saying, ‘Do this.’”
Shelley: “Talk about some of the degradation the women have to go through.”
Jersey: “You may see a 45-minute set that took us 13 hours. …We’re ripped, we’re tired, we’re sored, we’re bleeding, we’re cut up, we have dried semen all over our faces from numerous guys and we can’t wash it off because they want to take pictures. You have this stuff all over you and they’re telling you, ‘Hold it!’”
“You can say anything you want [stop or pain etc] and they don’t listen. There’s the ultimate thing where you squeeze their leg to ease up and most of them don’t care. They have another scene to go to. It’s all about the money. They’ve forgotten who they are and they don’t care who they’re hurting.”
“I’m on the road right now heading to a different life. I’m going to try to make it as a normal person because I’m done.”
“You have no soul in the porn industry.”
-- Jersey Jaxin, former porn performer.
Sources: antipornographyactivist.wordpress.com/2007/08/21/former-porn-star-jersey-jaxin-on-why-she-quit-porn-and-how-abusive-the-industry-is-towards-women/ and www. shelleylubben.com/blog/index.php
To watch the 2 videos of the interview with Jersey Jaxin, please click on the links below:
[You will hear a couple of religious comments at the end of the second video of this interview. Please keep in mind that while I and my website "Against Pornography" support Shelley Lubben's struggle to prove and reveal the harms of the pornography industry to its performers, my website is a secular website and I do not agree with any of the religious views which Shelley has, despite the fact that I acknowledge that Shelley is a very courageous woman. -- M. H.]
Former Porn Performer Jersey Jaxin on Why She Quit Porn and How Abusive the Industry is Toward Women
Shelley Lubben also met Sierra Sinn, another porn performer. Here is an excerpt of what Shelley wrote about Sierra on her website:
Sierra Sinn leaves porn! (06/25/2007)
"I met Sierra Sinn last week and she is precious! I met her through myspace and she agreed to let me come to her home and visit with her....
"Sierra shared with me how she came from a violent childhood and moved around a lot as a child and that she began stripping at a young age which ultimately led her to acting in porn movies. Sierra admitted to me that porn shattered her life and that she wants out. She also has a five year old daughter who doesn't live with her and she wants so much to be with her again. Please watch this video of Sierra sharing her feelings about porn.
"While I was at Sierra's, she showed me her amazing creativity. She has this awesome talent to create braided shirts... [...]
"After Sierra and I spent time together, she called me a few days later and told me she just can't do porn anymore and even cleaned up her and let her fans know. This is NOT easy for Sierra and so she will need our support and love through this. Please leave encouraging comments to Sierra at this blog. The porn industry will probably lash out at her for this so let's make sure we stand with her as she courageously leaves porn!
"I would love to help Sierra do something different in life and am currently seeking out [people] who will assist me in helping her out of the industry... [...]
"If you are a porn star and you want out of the industry too, please contact me at . It would be an honor for me to assist you in your decision to leave porn..."
-- Shelley Lubben, former porn performer.
Source: www. shelleylubben.com/blog/blog.php?bid=8
Sierra Sinn YouTube Videos:
(You must be over 18 to watch this video -- YouTube checks your age).
[In case you either read or hear(d) any religious comment(s) in any of the links given above, please keep in mind that while I and my website "Against Pornography" support Shelley Lubben's struggle to prove and reveal the harms of the pornography industry to its performers, my website is a secular website and I do not agree with any of the religious views which Shelley has, despite the fact that I acknowledge that Shelley is a very courageous woman. -- M. H.]